So you've met the Deliverer. I would warn you that he can be something of a handful, but the little we've interacted leads me to believe it won't be a problem for you
Should you need someone to come and get him, however, I will take him off your hands
for all that elysia loves receiving new texts, it takes her a few steps to be on the same page as the letters on her screen. first, godslayer sure is an edgy name, isn't it? it takes one click on it to realize this is mydeimos, the boy she had met during their welcome party - not what that was - and quickly befriended.
then comes the words the deliverer, that makes elysia stop and think. she has met so many people in her short time in karteria so far, it'd be hard to tell who mydeimos is referring to... but she can't help but draw the similarities here, to a certain bearer of the deliverance signets.
...
so even in this new life of his, he's still a hero, huh. )
Are you and Phainon friends, Mydeimos?
( "friends"... yes... but regardless of the answer, she couldn't be happier that they know each other. )
Is he really that troublesome? He seemed like a good boy when we met. A timid but eager boy. Or is it that you're worried about me? That makes me happy ♪
( "what are we" is probably a question better poised to phainon rather than mydeimos, who is content to let it exist as it is. they are rivals, companions, equals. he supposes that all those combined makes phainon into a friend, but the word seems... trivial, when compared to how phainon exists to harass him, tease him, push him into being better than he could ever be without the other man. )
We are equals
( is what he settles on, for he feels that encompasses as much as how he feels in one word )
Hmph. Timid? ( perhaps, given the hesitance with which phainon approaches his destiny underneath the bravado. but mydei is also aware of the fact the man does not hold himself back in other matters, eager to spar against him even after their ten day fight. he gives every part of himself to those who need it, without question and without a second thought -- leaving nothing for himself. who is phainon? that, mydei thinks, is a question only the other man holds the answers to, though all hold parts of him.
it would be concerning if it were not phainon, who wears his heart on his sleeve even as he presents a smile to the imperiled world. a 'good boy', as miss elysia calls him. ) Only when he lets the doubts inside of him rule his head and his heart. He could stand to trust himself more, for all that he trusts in the rest of us Chrysos Heirs
I am simply concerned about the depths of your patience should he seek to test them as he does mine. Constantly
( so much said in such few texts. equals... elysia can't help but think, then, that they must be good friends, that much like the day they met, phainon must enjoy sparring with this friend of his. it's hard, not to let the nostalgia and melancholy wash over her, but she needs not worry. after all, her friends live all inside of her.
it would be good, though. to talk with them again like this. )
Is that what your friend group is called? Chrysos Heirs? ( "friend group" to HER )
You know, Phainon reminds me of a friend... He used to be a lot like him. Timid, and unsure of his future and the duty he had to all of us. But... Fate is something hard to fight against. Duty, even more so. It's not a path easy to take, but he had all of us. No matter how much he tried distancing himself, thinking that he's the only one meant to take on this burden, I would make sure to pout at him, and reassure that we're more than just teammates. We're friends, and even family.
So I think... Phainon might be like that, too. If he gives so much of himself to other people, then he might be trying to find an anchor, so he doesn't lose himself in whatever fate has in store for him. Does that seem like that would be the case?
That depends on your perspective. "Chrysos Heirs" is more of a... designation for individuals like the Deliverer and myself, who have golden ichor in our veins. But it is not a common curse, and therefore those of us who exhibit certain desirable traits in the eyes of the Goldweaver join her and support the Flame-Chase journey.
( if mydei was aware of the pain that his words might cause her, or what sorrow is hidden in them, he would have opted for a conversation face to face. it would be cruel, in his eyes, to do so hiding behind a screen. )
Perhaps, though it could also be that his problem lies more in the idea that he should keep himself at a distance, yet fails to do so. He is aware of what the cost of the journey is to all of us: only one will remain to see it through to its end, and that is his role as the Deliverer. For a man who cares deeply and easily, he likely worries too much over it. We all have accepted our future deaths in exchange for the promise of the better world he is to usher in, now it's up to him to see it to its end.
( man has no idea he's killing elysia with every text he sends, huh. or maybe it's a good thing she has a screen to hide behind, lest mydei sees the range of emotions across her face. hope, and melancholy, and nostalgia, and the bitter feeling of a world so similar to her own, but also so different. how she longs to know all of them, to learn of their lives, their past, present and future they fight for.
even better, too, is knowing that she might have been part of that, too. one way or another, if her special connection with phainon had been anything. )
Is it really a curse? Even if this journey of yours seem like one with obstacles almost impossible to overcome, it's for a better future, isn't it? To me, I would say the Chrysos Heirs are more like heroes.
( people to be remembered for their sacrifices, if mydeimos' words are anything to go by. she will commit them to memory, and hold them close to her heart, even if the world they're saving might not be her own. )
Fufu ♪ He should keep his distance, but here you are offering to keep him company if I'm not available. Mydeimos... You should be more honest about your feelings, you know?
( NOT what he said, but it's close enough!! to her!!!!! )
But the path of Deliverance is a lonely one, and I'm sure... Phainon's heart is too soft for it. But you know... It's a good thing that it hasn't changed him. The kind of boy he is, doesn't he suit warm afternoons and clear days the most? He shines the brightest, like the Sun itself. If the cold were to envelope him... He might close off his heart to everyone, and we would never be able to see how much pain he holds on it. He would have to bear it all alone, and that's too sad. I'm sure he will strengthen his resolve, one day. And when that day comes, make sure you're by his side, okay? Even if not physically. As long as Phainon has sweet memories and feelings to cling onto, I'm sure he will do just fine.
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( that's such an out of place reply to her wall of text... did she say something she shouldn't have?? it takes elysia a few minutes to reread through her messages, carefully, just to be sure... )
Oh, you mean your feelings? I mean, despite what you told me, if you really believed he should close off his heart, you wouldn't have come to me talking about 'taking him off my hands', right? So it seems to me someone here isn't being honest with himself ♪
Hmph. You mistake the nature of my concern. He can have his heart, but it cannot let it rule him to the extent it does. Fear threatens his resolve. And that is not something he can afford.
( obviously his concern comes from a place of wanting to support their hero. and nothing more. OBVIOUSLY. )
And I offer because he can make himself a nuisance given the chance.
( that's all. her third eye is open now. she Gets it. something about red-coded and blue-coded men... )
Phainon has been nothing but a good boy with me, so you have nothing to worry about, Mydeimos. You're a kind boy yourself, aren't you? But maybe one day I will call you so we can all hang out together instead ♪
( she's sure it's not, like it wasn't the word of choice people would use about kalpas. and yet, as it turns out, at the end of everything, mei must have seen how truly kind that boy was. isn't this just the same? )
No? Even though you thought of me, reached out to me, offered to help me with something that you thought would have bothered me? If people don't think that's kindness, then what is it?
Dodging my question only makes you more suspicious, you know. You don't have to be so shy with me, aren't we friends? And in a place like this, the best thing you can be is kind. There's no shame in that, Mydeimos.
I cannot say I've had a friend in recent memory. ( the goldweaver and the rest of the members of the flame chase journey are coworkers, companions, teachers. his friends died one by one, seeking honor in combat or ashamed of their lack of glory, and left a newly homeless, crownless prince, nineteen year old man to find his way forward alone. and phainon is-- he is... he is simply phainon. so he doesn't particularly know how to be friends with someone. ) It is not a matter of shame, Miss Elysia. Someone like myself is not made for kindness and tenderness; as a Kremnoan, as the Demigod of Strife, and as the Guardian of Amphoreus, it is beyond my reach. But you shouldn't concern yourself over the reality of my fate. I've made my peace with it.
( in another life, in the next one, there might be time for such things. mydei doesn't know yet that even then it will be beyond him: he will become the titan of strife, and he will never have the chance to simply live, to curate a library and simply be whoever he might decide he wishes to be. but, should he know that, he will also know this: it changes nothing. he will keep moving forward, keep doing his duty until the last, until even his sanity is torn from him.
mydeimos will stand tall, stride forth, and be that pillar and wall for those that will come after. to let phainon hold up the world and usher in the new era. )
( elysia doesn't say anything for a while, because this is a far more delicate situation. poor mydeimos, she thinks. she may not know what a kremoan is, or what it means to be the demigod of strife - though the name says a lot by itself -, or even how heavy the burden of being amphoreus' guardian is, but... )
You really do remind me of a friend, you know. He would say the same thing to me. But you know, Mydeimos... I may not be familiar with your home, or your duties, but if there's something you're fighting to protect, then I know you're not a bad person. And anyone who's sacrificing himself to fight for something, or someone, deserves kindness and tenderness. Otherwise you wouldn't allow yourself to be where you are, right?
I see now why you and the Deliverer must get along. ( which is something of an answer to her question, while at the same time he knows he is avoiding any true response. he doesn't know how to respond to someone saying that he deserves kindness, tenderness of all things. ) You both concern yourselves with the wellbeing of others without a second thought, taking on those burdens as if they were your own. And yet I wonder if you are similar enough that you do it at the cost of your own desires.
It is not a weight you should add to your shoulders. Do not worry -- I am strong enough to carry it.
( so even in this world he's still like that, huh. deliverance truly is never easy, but nor should it be so lonely.
something for another time, another day, if she ever decides to cross that unspeakable line with phainon. )
Fufu. Are you worried about us, Mydeimos~? But if you disagree with that so much, then it means you have to watch over him, you know? If the burdens aren't meant to be carried by one person... then you have to make sure you're there to support him.
( there is the temptation to brush her words off -- he doesn't need him to look over him, to support him. but something about elysia compels him to be straightforward in his answer. perhaps he simply doesn't wish to have her see through him so effortlessly again. perhaps he knows that attempting to dodge it yet again will be futile. )
As long as he wishes for me to be by his side, I will be
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So you've met the Deliverer. I would warn you that he can be something of a handful, but the little we've interacted leads me to believe it won't be a problem for you
Should you need someone to come and get him, however, I will take him off your hands
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for all that elysia loves receiving new texts, it takes her a few steps to be on the same page as the letters on her screen. first, godslayer sure is an edgy name, isn't it? it takes one click on it to realize this is mydeimos, the boy she had met during their welcome party - not what that was - and quickly befriended.
then comes the words the deliverer, that makes elysia stop and think. she has met so many people in her short time in karteria so far, it'd be hard to tell who mydeimos is referring to... but she can't help but draw the similarities here, to a certain bearer of the deliverance signets.
...
so even in this new life of his, he's still a hero, huh. )
Are you and Phainon friends, Mydeimos?
( "friends"... yes... but regardless of the answer, she couldn't be happier that they know each other. )
Is he really that troublesome? He seemed like a good boy when we met. A timid but eager boy.
Or is it that you're worried about me? That makes me happy ♪
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We are equals
( is what he settles on, for he feels that encompasses as much as how he feels in one word )
Hmph. Timid? ( perhaps, given the hesitance with which phainon approaches his destiny underneath the bravado. but mydei is also aware of the fact the man does not hold himself back in other matters, eager to spar against him even after their ten day fight. he gives every part of himself to those who need it, without question and without a second thought -- leaving nothing for himself. who is phainon? that, mydei thinks, is a question only the other man holds the answers to, though all hold parts of him.
it would be concerning if it were not phainon, who wears his heart on his sleeve even as he presents a smile to the imperiled world. a 'good boy', as miss elysia calls him. ) Only when he lets the doubts inside of him rule his head and his heart. He could stand to trust himself more, for all that he trusts in the rest of us Chrysos Heirs
I am simply concerned about the depths of your patience should he seek to test them as he does mine. Constantly
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it would be good, though. to talk with them again like this. )
Is that what your friend group is called? Chrysos Heirs? ( "friend group" to HER )
You know, Phainon reminds me of a friend... He used to be a lot like him. Timid, and unsure of his future and the duty he had to all of us.
But... Fate is something hard to fight against. Duty, even more so. It's not a path easy to take, but he had all of us. No matter how much he tried distancing himself, thinking that he's the only one meant to take on this burden, I would make sure to pout at him, and reassure that we're more than just teammates. We're friends, and even family.
So I think... Phainon might be like that, too. If he gives so much of himself to other people, then he might be trying to find an anchor, so he doesn't lose himself in whatever fate has in store for him.
Does that seem like that would be the case?
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( if mydei was aware of the pain that his words might cause her, or what sorrow is hidden in them, he would have opted for a conversation face to face. it would be cruel, in his eyes, to do so hiding behind a screen. )
Perhaps, though it could also be that his problem lies more in the idea that he should keep himself at a distance, yet fails to do so. He is aware of what the cost of the journey is to all of us: only one will remain to see it through to its end, and that is his role as the Deliverer. For a man who cares deeply and easily, he likely worries too much over it. We all have accepted our future deaths in exchange for the promise of the better world he is to usher in, now it's up to him to see it to its end.
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even better, too, is knowing that she might have been part of that, too. one way or another, if her special connection with phainon had been anything. )
Is it really a curse? Even if this journey of yours seem like one with obstacles almost impossible to overcome, it's for a better future, isn't it?
To me, I would say the Chrysos Heirs are more like heroes.
( people to be remembered for their sacrifices, if mydeimos' words are anything to go by. she will commit them to memory, and hold them close to her heart, even if the world they're saving might not be her own. )
Fufu ♪
He should keep his distance, but here you are offering to keep him company if I'm not available. Mydeimos... You should be more honest about your feelings, you know?
( NOT what he said, but it's close enough!! to her!!!!! )
But the path of Deliverance is a lonely one, and I'm sure... Phainon's heart is too soft for it.
But you know...
It's a good thing that it hasn't changed him. The kind of boy he is, doesn't he suit warm afternoons and clear days the most? He shines the brightest, like the Sun itself. If the cold were to envelope him... He might close off his heart to everyone, and we would never be able to see how much pain he holds on it. He would have to bear it all alone, and that's too sad.
I'm sure he will strengthen his resolve, one day. And when that day comes, make sure you're by his side, okay? Even if not physically. As long as Phainon has sweet memories and feelings to cling onto, I'm sure he will do just fine.
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My what
SADGDSMFNKJH IT IS FUNNY
( that's such an out of place reply to her wall of text... did she say something she shouldn't have?? it takes elysia a few minutes to reread through her messages, carefully, just to be sure... )
Oh, you mean your feelings?
I mean, despite what you told me, if you really believed he should close off his heart, you wouldn't have come to me talking about 'taking him off my hands', right? So it seems to me someone here isn't being honest with himself ♪
he's just a stupid tsundere have mercy on him
( obviously his concern comes from a place of wanting to support their hero. and nothing more. OBVIOUSLY. )
And I offer because he can make himself a nuisance given the chance.
she will never. amen
Mhmm ♪
( that's all. her third eye is open now. she Gets it. something about red-coded and blue-coded men... )
Phainon has been nothing but a good boy with me, so you have nothing to worry about, Mydeimos. You're a kind boy yourself, aren't you?
But maybe one day I will call you so we can all hang out together instead ♪
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'Kind' is not usually the word people use to describe me, Miss Elysia
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No? Even though you thought of me, reached out to me, offered to help me with something that you thought would have bothered me?
If people don't think that's kindness, then what is it?
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( the truth, even if he is sidestepping her questions )
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Dodging my question only makes you more suspicious, you know.
You don't have to be so shy with me, aren't we friends?
And in a place like this, the best thing you can be is kind. There's no shame in that, Mydeimos.
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( in another life, in the next one, there might be time for such things. mydei doesn't know yet that even then it will be beyond him: he will become the titan of strife, and he will never have the chance to simply live, to curate a library and simply be whoever he might decide he wishes to be. but, should he know that, he will also know this: it changes nothing. he will keep moving forward, keep doing his duty until the last, until even his sanity is torn from him.
mydeimos will stand tall, stride forth, and be that pillar and wall for those that will come after. to let phainon hold up the world and usher in the new era. )
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You really do remind me of a friend, you know. He would say the same thing to me.
But you know, Mydeimos... I may not be familiar with your home, or your duties, but if there's something you're fighting to protect, then I know you're not a bad person. And anyone who's sacrificing himself to fight for something, or someone, deserves kindness and tenderness.
Otherwise you wouldn't allow yourself to be where you are, right?
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It is not a weight you should add to your shoulders. Do not worry -- I am strong enough to carry it.
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something for another time, another day, if she ever decides to cross that unspeakable line with phainon. )
Fufu. Are you worried about us, Mydeimos~?
But if you disagree with that so much, then it means you have to watch over him, you know? If the burdens aren't meant to be carried by one person... then you have to make sure you're there to support him.
That's what friends are for, after all!
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As long as he wishes for me to be by his side, I will be